When I started this blog, my life was completely different. Had things stayed the same, I’d probably be celebrating a 100-post milestone. Clearly things didn’t work out as planned. My intention was to share my journey as I discovered how to incorporate a healthy lifestyle through recipes, nutrition tips and more; however, I realize now that’s simply not going to happen.
Let me back up and explain what exactly changed. Just over a year ago I lost a job I really enjoyed and things just spiraled from there. As frightening as it was at the time, it was as they say, “a blessing in disguise.” Hells bells, I was in a rut. I’d modeled part-time on and off for a while and was visiting my agency two days prior to hearing the news and my agent said to me, “do you want to go to Cape Town?” I had a feeling that change was in the air and said simply, “yes.” (I’ve always had a serious case of wanderlust having already been to 20 countries at this point.) Two days later, I found out my program was terminated and soon after, that Cape Town wanted me. At this point, I had the summer free since this all happened in May and I wasn’t planning to leave until September. In short, I focused on me, myself and I; I immersed myself in my studies with Integrative Nutrition, read as many health books I could wrap my mind around and taught myself how to cook. Since I was no longer required to sit at a computer for any length of time, I had no desire to sit behind it if I could help it – even to continue this blog. Since leaving America, my life has continued to be a whirlwind of change. I spent the most part of seven months in South Africa, have been in Germany for the last two and will leave for Turkey in one.
None of this is about “finding myself.” That’s bullshit. It’s not even about traveling. I’ve always made an effort to live my life to the fullest and just decided to take it another step. I know what makes me happy, I know what I want and I do whatever I can to have more of it. Modeling isn’t as glamorous as it’s cracked up to be but it gives me the opportunity to do all the things I love. There’s a lot of waiting, a lot of pre-conceived misconceptions, pressure to be “young” to appear “flawless” and imagine having to wear a bikini on a windy beach in the freezing cold. But the worst of it all? Rejection. I believe that in order to grow as a person, you have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations and modeling gives me the opportunity to do just that. Who knows, a year from now I may decide that it’s time to go back home and if I do, that’s OK because that’ll be what makes me happy at the time. If that’s the case, I can live my life to the fullest just fine from there.
At this point you might be asking yourself, “Ok, so what does any of this have to do with health?” Well, my life pretty much revolves around it and it’s the thing I love the most outside of my family and friends. In short, health encompasses all of my loves: food, nutrition, exercise, growth, experience, change, nature, relationships, etc. I love to be healthy, to feel good.
Needless to say, this blog has taken a turn. Assuming I follow through (I mean, let’s be honest), it’ll encompass so much more than recipes and products; it’ll reflect my journey through my travels, my work as model and joys and challenges to incorporate health at all costs. I hope that Food for Beauty inspires you to be as healthy as you can be. Stay tuned!
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